You Deserve Recovery—And You Can Recover
If you want recovery to stick, there are two things you have to believe:
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You deserve recovery.
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You can recover.
Here’s the truth though—I didn’t believe either of those when I first started.
In the beginning, I wasn’t really trying to recover. I was hoping I could somehow manage my eating disorder. Keep it tucked away, just out of sight. Something I could pull out when life felt overwhelming, then quietly pack away again when I didn’t need it.
Spoiler alert: it doesn’t work that way.
If you truly want to heal, you have to let it go. All of it.
No part-time recovery. No “just in case” behaviors.
It’s all or nothing.
What helped me was having a treatment team that believed in me before I could believe in myself. They were in my corner from the start—cheering me on, being real about how hard it would be, but reminding me constantly that I could do it.
They also made something really clear: recovery was in my hands. They could guide me, support me, offer tools—but the heavy lifting? That was mine to carry.
And little by little, I started to believe them.
I began thinking: Yeah… maybe I can do this. Maybe I can beat this.
And eventually: I will recover. I will be one of the ones who makes it.
Right now, maybe you don’t believe you can recover. That’s okay.
Recovery can feel overwhelming—especially at the beginning.
But hear me when I say this:
I believe in you.
I believe in your resilience.
I believe in your strength.
I believe that every time you fall, you will rise again.
You are not stuck. You are not broken. You are in the middle of becoming something stronger, freer, and more alive than ever before.
You weren’t put on this planet to live a miserable, painful life.
You were born to live a life full of joy, meaning, and peace.
Don’t let this eating disorder steal that from you.
You are worth more. So much more.
I’ve got faith in you. One day, you will too.
With love, kelly